At a certain age, we all reach the point where we stop to think about what’s right and what’s wrong. Recently it started occurring more often upon reaching this phase of self- exploration and thinking “we know it all” but get hit in the face with a shovel called “reality”. After questioning everything around me (even my own existence), I stop to think “am I where I’m Supposed to be, or is it where I Want to be”?!
You find yourself working strange stuff, one of which is studying a family’s choice of field that you’ve been stuck with since you were born, where the whole family is waiting for you to save them from their boring & structured life.
Most of us end up doing something else other than what we planned for which often leads us to the question… Am I on the right track? Should I just go with it or do I look for something else, something more me?
Coming from a culture that resists change, it’s impossible to find an answer when you ask for advice; everyone ends up lying to you just to make you feel better or gives you examples based on their experience which- half of the time- don’t apply to your case.
What do I make of this advice anyway, people don’t know what I’ve been through, the path I’ve taken, and the decisions I’ve made. What difference is it going to make, why should I even bother?!
Sometimes, I myself think that maybe I could have become someone more me and that obtaining an engineering path and career was totally not the right choice. But wait a minute, isn’t that what usually happens when you’re just a follower in the herd that is your culture or most likely, parents belief? Taking the “Hard Way” out, not really caring what other people thought I should or should not do, did not stop me from making up my mind and going after what I think is right for me.
I just simply believe that every person is born with certain set of talents & that these talents can be enhanced but the only problem with us is that we don’t even try to know ourselves. The worst thing is that sometimes we know that we possess certain treasures in ourselves but still we don’t get the courage to work on them & polish them.
So, I started challenging myself into different fields like writing itself. I took this writing as a challenge to prove to myself that I can type more than 350 words whenever I want to. Same I did with sketching & painting. The most beautiful thing about this challenging idea was that it helped me to explore myself in new dimensions & that I always come up with new fresh ideas regarding any challenge that I placed in front of me rather than being part of a herd.
This is exactly what I think you should all do when you go through something like that. JUST CHALLENGE yourself with work tasks, throw yourself out there, try new things, and don’t submit to what people think you should do, because in the end you do not want to be just another ordinary person, we have a lot of these already. Live your life, not someone else’s.